I was thinking a while back that I wasn't too happy with the look of my blog, it was too depressing. So I decided to mix it up a bit. I am feeling more uplifted so I figured my blog should reflect that. I am so happy to have gone to therapy, it took a while to take that step, but I'm thinking it is really working. Both because I have a great therapist and because I was ready. You really need to be willing to go, if you are there for the wrong reasons you are just wasting your time and theirs.
I don't feel as angry or as mad. I don't hurt as much, and mostly, what I think is the best part is that I don't find myself wishing pain on others. When you hurt inside and have for a very long time, you just want others to feel the same way you do. You want then to feel your pain, so maybe they can understand you better. But that isn't fair to others, they have their own pain to deal with, you don't need to share.
I am also realizing I know what it means to be hungry and full again. I always thought that I was an emotional eater, but now I know I was. I had so much pain, hurt and despair going on, I couldn't really feel anything else. My body couldn't tell when I was hungry, or when I had too much to eat. But I am learning again how uncomfortable it is to be full.
Well I have more work to do, have a great day!
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