So I haven't posted in a long while, not that it matters really. No one sees this, and when someone does happen upon it, it must be really boring. So who cares, blogging is all about personal vanity anyway. It is a self centered way to get attention, we all know it. In the long run it doesn't really effect a persons life or how they live it.
But I did want to vent, so here I go, what I really want is to have my husband act like he really likes me. That he is really attracted to me. I want him to react to me like he would to a glass of water after walking through a desert. Is that too much to ask for? I want him to be set on fire at the thought of me. I want him to kiss me, grab me, throw me on the bed, and ravish me.
What I don't want, is him coming home all sullen, and moody. I don't want him to ignore my sexting, I don't want him to fall asleep in bed while I am talking to him. I don't want him spending more time in the morning on his hair than on his wife. I would love to be held at night, even if it was just one hand on my hip. I would love a passionate kiss when he walked in the door.
I am tired of feeling like the babysitter, someone who is only here to make sure the baby is all right. I really need this, I am having another baby soon, and then we won't be able to do anything for weeks, and we will be super tired and worn out, so we won't want to. I just want me husband to want me, really is that too much to ask for?
