So...not sure what to post, so I guess I will ramble.

I have been trying extra hard this month to lose weight, I upped my workout time, and I am watching what I eat. It isn't easy. Anyone who tries to tell you it is easy, is trying to sell you something. Don't trust them. It takes hard work, very hard work. You have to set priorities and boundaries, and deny yourself, all of which are very hard for most of us to do.

You can tell by the weight, not me.

If they were able to control these, most wouldn't be in the position they are in now, like me. If I could control them, and say no to late night chips and ice cream benders, I wouldn't be struggling now to get healthy again. I am right about 240, and I really want to get to 230, so this month I am pushing myself, but I think I need to push even harder.

Since eating is a huge deal for me, (not so much eating, but loving food, all sorts of yummy food, like Pizza, doughnuts, caramel, cheese dip...)  and I have some many things around me already that I can't eat, (like honey chex, Doritos, chicken nuggets) That controlling my food even more will just break me.

I am thinking I need to watch how much I work out, I have upped it to an hour a day, I might need to make it more, which isn't thrilling me, but the thought of wearing my wedding ring again is thrilling me, I am working towards that goal. But for some dang reason the fat in my fingers just won't go away. Really, like that is the last fat that needs to stick around,
 "hey look at my six pack abs, just ignore my fat hot dog fingers".

Triple Chocolate, this will make sense later.

Yes it is funny that I want my fingers skinny first, but come on, they are so small with so little extra fat there, why can't it go first? I would love my belly to disappear fast also, but that is going to take ages. Ages. I could be down two pants sizes if it wasn't for this stinking belly roll. I know it has gotten less, but it is still way too big.

I know gross, who wants to hear about a fat belly roll, it is is a problem lots of us fatty's have. Maybe I shouldn't call is fatty's maybe I should call us, the unfits.

Maybe instead of talking about the fat roll I can talk about how it hangs down and chafes my skin, even rubs off body hair, would that be better, or just more super grossness? It is just a fact of life, for us unfits that is.

So besides wanting skinny fingers, a smaller belly roll, I also want to get to the point where my legs don't rub together, that is going to take skill, it isn't easy working those muscles, besides using them to open stubborn jar lids, what do you really do with your inner thigh muscles? I am not a wrestler, so I am not using them to squash someones head with them, and I am a married old lady, so I am not working them out with a horizontal limbo partner, at least not much that is.

You go Girl!

I guess Suzanne Somers was right, only the thigh master works those muscles, but I ain't buying another one of those devices, (yeah I said another one, I won't tell you how many I have bought, but it is more than one, and yes, you can feel the burn with one, they do work, if you use them actually for what they are intended for) But I don't need another torture device for my kids to "fight" each other with.

Again, not mine, the dress gives it away.

The next best thing, I guess is searching Pinterest for thigh work outs, I am sure there are dozens, I just need to make sure I don't get sidetracked by triple chocolate cake, a dream wedding photo shoot, and the cutest ways to dress up my laundry room. Really, who has time and money to have a cute folding table? Not this girl, I am way to busy opening jars with my thighs, and chasing two boys around the house that are fighting each other with vacuum accessories.